photos by mohammad reza domiri ganji in iran of: (1) the dome of the seyyed mosque in isfahan; (2,8) the nasīr al mulk mosque, or pink mosque, in shiraz; (3,4) the vakil mosque in shiraz; (5) the ceiling of the fifth floor of ali qapu in isfahan; (6,10) the vakil bathhouse in shiraz; (7) the imam mosque in isfahan; (9) the jame mosque of yazd
stay-weird-babee: If you’re ever having a bad day, here is a picture of a little turtle wearing a raspberry
thegravioramanentblog said: I will be so sad if you delete this blog; you're one of the only serious astrologers on tumblr who actually knows what they are talking about, and I enjoy all of your posts!<3
Thanks for your support and kind words. I’m sorry about it. I still don’t know what to do really.
I’m a really obsessive and sensitive person. And in the beginning I started this blog as an outlet for that obsession with astrology. And it worked for a while but then I got obsessive with the blog and it felt more like work than fun.
Also, in trying to keep my integrity as a “metaphysical student” I’m constantly studying symbols and symbolism. And sometimes those studies end up in really really dark places — places I’m not always prepared to be. I end up in dark holes that I have trouble getting out of and I have to ask myself who I really am and what I really want my life to be. And I can’t really say that astrology blogger on tumblr is one of those things…My obsessiveness is crazy. I put so much pressure on myself about things. I often wish that I didn’t know anything about astrology at all and that I wasn’t always asking myself where the moon is and putting every person I come in contact with in some mental astrological category. I want to remember what it was like to live without this knowledge, without these symbolic influences.
But on the other hand. On a very surface level I like doing this blog. It feeds this need in me to have a routine and I like looking at the art. I like making themes for the day and I get a creative fulfillment from it.
But on deeper levels I guess you can just say at a very new crossroads and I’m not as sure of things as I once was . And I’m disturbed by all the things I don’t understand and when you’re as old as I am and have gone through as many challenges as I have its kind of weird when this happens. Because it really is like a next level existential crisis. Its like you think you’ve gone through every philosophical phase that you can go through and you kind of get a little bit of peace for a moment only to feel suddenly like you’re in some alternate reality and basically you just leveled up to a whole new battle. You’re not a head of the game anymore. That day is over. You’re just at the beginning a new one, something completely uncharted and maybe the answer was something you walked away from a really long time ago, or maybe not…
That’s probably way too much to mention but yeah I guess that’s the actual bottom of the problem.
I’m just now joining up with my blog after a pretty long break. Nice to know I’m not alone. :)